To all my watchers, due to events in my life I have not posted anything in the last month. Hopefully that will change in the next week or so.
The last two months have been some of the most emotional stressful time in my entire life. Events that I thought I had put behind me thirty years ago had to be confronted and dealt with. Secrets from decades ago have been revealed to me and I have had to reassess my relationship with the remaining members of my family.
A solution has been settled upon concerning my Father’s affairs and while logically it is the best resolution I could come with under the existing economic and legal restrictions, it still hardly the most satisfactory situation. There are still hurdles that need to be dealt with but I am starting to gain the time and mental energy to deal with more than just day-to-day affairs.
Through all this my friends, family and close coworkers have been an amazing source of support that has made possible to deal with this mess, but the single greatest source of support has been my wife Smudge. Without her love and support this would’ve been a far more traumatic, devastating experience.
At this point all I can do for my Father is to try and make him as comfortable as possible with the resources available. His condition is one of slow inevitable decline; it is only a matter of time.
This has forced me to examine and acknowledge my own mortality. I have seen death before, often quick and violent, but this is different. There are many things one can do to increase your chances of living longer, but inevitably that day will come. It is like an appointment with someone you don’t want meet but you have to. You can postpone it, reschedule it, and ask for a change of venue, but eventually one day you will have that appointment. It makes one appreciate the days we do have left.